Laying down with my children as they fall asleep used to be something I resented. After a night of nursing, an early morning start and a full day of mothering I am ready for some creative me time, not lay in the dark and stare at nothing time.
When I was pregnant with Koala I started to use the time to meditate and connect with myself since having a two year old left little time for emotional birth preparation. It was a rapid change in my perspective. Instead of resenting bedtime I started to look forward to it. It became an opportunity to snuggle quietly with my first born and explore my mind and body, releasing tension of my day and setting intentions for my day to day and my upcoming birth experience. It was a true gift.
I was laying here tonight with Solshine helping him fall asleep. He was overstimulated and overtired from our travels and staying up late at Meme and Papa’s house. It was very calming and I found myself deeply thankful for the time to rest quietly next to him as he settled down.
Somewhere in that still moment of gratitude I felt a flutter. And then blurp. And then a nudge.
Perhaps my favorite part of being a mother is feeling that first movement–the quickening. It’s magical and quiet and private and immensely humbling all at the same time.
Hello little one.
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What an awesome experience to get to have, and no doubt you were blessed with it because you were being so still and quiet, and that left room for your new little one to give his/her introduction to you!
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just beautiful.
took me right back to feeling those first fluttery movements of my little ones and left me with a warm feeling in my heart and a smile on my face.
thank you.
~erin
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I felt such love and joy for you as I read your post. The first movements are magical indeed…and I love that it happened at such a magical time. Happy Holidays dear friend.
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How beautiful. What a perfectly memorable time to experience those first flutters. This brought a smile to my lips and a warm shiver in my soul.
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How wonderful! I enjoyed this post so much… I was just going along, enjoying reading about how bedtime has transformed for you, and then at the end… What a gift!