I’ve been feeling very nostalgic. Perhaps it’s the change of seasons; Autumn brings so many memories, mostly of cozy warmth and the arrival of my two boys. I love Autumn and I love the subtleties of change — that feeling where you know something is changing, but you can’t quite put your finger on it yet.
My baby will be two next month and the reality of his growth has arrived almost instantly. I’m looking at him and realizing I don’t have a tiny baby anymore. He’s much more independent these days (albeit his his passionate love for his mother and his nursies) and I feel a transition happening within me.
A few months back my Moontime returned. It was a welcome celebration because I missed her so much. I love my cycles and the way they help me stay connected, reminding me to watch the moon, stay aware of my body and celebrate my fertility and my health.
With the return of my menses has come a renewal of creativity. I’m full of ideas — they come almost too quick to act on, and I find myself needing to crafty with my hands. I’ve taken my sewing machine out and have been making my way through the pile of clothes that need to be mended and old linens that want to be re-purposed.
I’ve cleaned out my knitting basket and found some old projects that are asking to be finished and I have some new inspirations for the upcoming cool season.
I want to make, I want to create and it’s with a passion that has been absent from my life and I realize it’s my baby growing up. When they are small they consume every ounce of creative energy and with his surge of independence comes a renewal of energy for myself, my home and my family.
I look back with sweet nostalgia and see how much has happened these past two years, and with a renewed sense of clarity and energy I emerge, ready to unleash my Creative Child.
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hi there. i linked to you from renee’s FIMBY blog.
my little guy turns 2 in december and i have been having these same pangs and observations. my daughter turned 5 on saturday and so i know just what made these feelings rush in. if we could only slow time down. or perhaps travel backwards and forwards through it. i would not give up the wonderful little people they are becoming, but i do miss the tiny people they were.
you have a lovely blog!
nicola
http://whichname.blogspot.com
Hi Nicola,
Thanks so much for your kind words. My oldest is turning 5 next month so we are in the same boat. It always feels good to have someone understand what you are feeling. Off to check your blog out :-)
yes, yes, and yes. I feel it too mama, and the welcome return of a little sense of self…For me, it is hard to know it may be the *last* baby (although I think Lizzie, like your sweet babe, will never give up the nursies, so at least I don’t have to face weening anytime soon;)), and yet, there is something truly joyful about reconnecting with ourselves after the abyss of the newborn years. That yarn is beautiful– and hooray for a season that welcomes us to hunker down a bit and jump into creative projects.
this is just beautiful my friend.
my second (and last) baby weaned this spring just before his third birthday. my older turned five this summer. both of my children are in school part-time this year. everyone is sleeping throught the night in their own beds (mostly ;-).
and i too am feeling a re-awakening of my creative spirit.
i have been felting sweaters that i hope to make into hats and ear warmers for this winter…needle felting…knitting socks. and creating new soup recipes…and writing…and drawing….
i’m also enjoying sorting through our baby items and passing them along to a new friend who is expecting her first in a few weeks.
~erin
ps ~ i have been trying to order that cycle calendar for months and it has been sold out (through my buying club). so for now i’m marking my cycle on the family calendar and learning to ride the ebbs and flows of my emotions and energy levels thoughout the month.
.-= exhale. return to center.´s last blog ..the magic of a meadow =-.
ps….i *love* your new header!!!! it is absolutely gorgeous!!!
.-= exhale. return to center.´s last blog ..the magic of a meadow =-.
the community i have found here in the blogosphere is wonderful. it is lovely to know we aren’t alone, isn’t it?!
nicola
http://whichname.blogspot.com
.-= nicola´s last blog ..goodbye summer. hello autumn. =-.
I find my creativity ebbing and flowing but never related it to my cycles. I’ll have to watch more closely now.
I enjoyed reading this. :)
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