We had the flu. It felt like the flu does–horrible. Our entire flow dissipated into marathon movies, couch pile-ups and enormous amounts of emergen-C. I had it a bit longer than the kids and I think it’s because they were able to sleep more. I was up at night soothing them so they could sleep and it seemed to inhibit my healing.
We’re better now. There were a few really rough days and now we all have a lingering cough and I’m so thankful.
I am so thankful to be healthy. I am thankful to have access to quality food and clean drinking water. I am thankful that we have a comfortable home. I am thankful we could stay home and do what we needed to do to get better. I am thankful for the friends who dropped by elderberry syrup, picked up our milk share and dropped off a few Halloween treats when we couldn’t go trick-or-treating. I am thankful for the dozens of offers I received from neighbors and friends to bring us food or groceries or anything else we needed.
I understand that some people die from the flu and for someone with another health condition it may be very dangerous. I am thankful we did not find ourselves in that situation and my heart pours out for families experiencing this right now. I am reminded that life is fragile and there is a blessing in this mindfulness. Because at any moment, at anytime, someone in my family could die. It could have been the flu, or a car accident, or a terminal diagnosis.
Essentially that is what life is about–waking up in the moment, savoring it because it’s just a blip in the whole scheme of things. In a way our lives are insignificant and in that same way they are magnificent. Life is so short and death is inevitable. When I am reminded of this my patience is longer and those two year old antics make me smile instead of cry. Days can be so long, but one lifetime seems so short.
When I was sick last week it was amidst the media frenzy of H1N1. As I lay on my couch I thought about all of this a lot. Usually when I’m sick, I’m just sick, but this time I was thinking about fear and families and flu shots. I was happy my family was so healthy to begin with, but what if they weren’t? Would we get the shot? I’m someone who errs on the side of Nature. I think we get the best immunity from experiencing illness, but I also respect science and the amazing things we have discovered. It is a difficult choice for many people and the media frenzy makes it that much harder for people to wade through the information and their intuition.
I’ve been trying to write this post for a few days and it’s been tough. It’s a touchy subject (fear, death and H1N1), but mostly what I want to say is that blessings come in all sorts of packages. Sometimes what we fear the most holds the most abundance for us. This is true for our experience with the flu. I didn’t necessarily want it and everyone is so afraid of it, but for us it brought out the best of life–the love, the safety, the comfort, the friends and it in the middle of a fever I found out we are expecting another child. Talk about unearthed blessings!
I hope your family is safe and well today. I hope you are wading through this craze with a steady mind and centered heart. I know many people are sick right now and I hope your family fares as well as mine did (well minus the pregnancy if that’s not your thing ;-)). Savor this time together and be well.